Different Perspectives, Different Feelings, Different Expectations but it is the same old me…… or is it…..

We deal with a lot these days, whether it is the bombardment of feelings, opinions, hormones and whatnot. It feels overwhelming and empty sometimes, but it never stays the same; things keep changing, which might be the only constant thing. I recently had a very drastic change of location. I had to leave behind my closest friends once again. I feel grateful and happy that I went on the best note possible, and it felt like it wasn’t a final goodbye. However, one can’t help but feel lonely at times. I grow older each day, and I feel like I lack romance or a person I can talk to daily. Is it essential? Yes, it absolutely is; I am human, and we all want to find a meaningful connection. This isn’t sad or depressing. In fact, it brings so much meaning to my life; I walk miles on my own, singing throughout the 4 seasons of this country. Somehow, this cute sense of love and positivity keeps chasing me like I always wanted my crushes to feel about me. Hahahaha….. Too many one-sided crushes: One Girl who liked coffee more than tea, this other sort of unique, crazy one with whom my plans to meet in person never finalized and the one from work who would be a great match in so many ways, so many common interests like movies and her name is my favourite name. Ufff, I am a hopeful romantic, but I agree I am too optimistic. Anything extreme, whether good or bad, becomes challenging to handle, so I would say from experience that tread cautiously. I know it’s been a long time, and I have travelled to so many places I have even been across the world. I have found love in many other forms, so I am not bitter but crave playful romance sometimes. However, I will not become bitter just because I am waiting; I am just sitting here with my guitar, heart, and words. If I am taking steps toward this sweet, ordinary girl, how will it be fair if I am not my sweet, most ordinary self?

Here is a bonus to all those lovely people who took the time to read all of this…

Someone loves you whether you know it to not

Finding the right one is worthless if you never fought

Feelings go up and down every day, changes fast

Real people, Real Love, and Real Change will last.